I keep wondering--just how does it all work? How is it that a woman who is so unbelievably insatiable and relentless in her NEED (her LUST) for so long can suddenly become so damned upside down? I mean--where are my missing hormones that used to dwell within and make me ache ALL the time? Now, I'm on a roller coaster ride of being insatiably horny and in huge need one minute--to not knowing if I am horny or not for days, sometimes weeks at a time...
These hormonal imbalances, the hot flashes, the mood swings all seem to interfere with who I used to know as ME. I think I'm still me, but sometimes I just get so frightened from within, wondering if somehow I will lose me in the process of going through this supposedly natural metamorphosis (the change)?
It's no wonder our mothers and elderly female relatives did not tell us about this--I'm sure they thought that it would be too cruel to warn we younger women in the family too soon of what was to come...it's BACKWARDS PUBERTY. Raging hormones one minute, self doubt, insecurity, craziness, moodiness the next. I guess I can't blame my mother, my aunts for not filling me in with too much depth of detail. I guess we all just have to endure and get through things in our own way.
These hormonal imbalances, the hot flashes, the mood swings all seem to interfere with who I used to know as ME. I think I'm still me, but sometimes I just get so frightened from within, wondering if somehow I will lose me in the process of going through this supposedly natural metamorphosis (the change)?
It's no wonder our mothers and elderly female relatives did not tell us about this--I'm sure they thought that it would be too cruel to warn we younger women in the family too soon of what was to come...it's BACKWARDS PUBERTY. Raging hormones one minute, self doubt, insecurity, craziness, moodiness the next. I guess I can't blame my mother, my aunts for not filling me in with too much depth of detail. I guess we all just have to endure and get through things in our own way.
But no matter what, this damn Backwards Puberty Sucks!
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