And Jesus Wept

It is not often that I turn to him and wonder and ask the many questions that dwell within my mind, my heart, my very soul.  You see, there is so very much I want to know.  Why are people all across the world so cruel and mean?  Why does humanity do such inhumane things to their fellow man?  Why do we humans waste so much and ruin the land?  Why cannot we all just share and get along and love as you, dear Jesus, tried so hard to teach us to do?  I do know that you were here at one time, that you tried so hard to share what you knew, to get others to listen, to follow you and even now, so many are trying hard to understand, to live and do what they believe so surely is "what Jesus would do"--yet too there are scores and scores more that have no clue, have no inkling of how to live as if they were trying to emulate you.  I just don't understand, you see.  I will forever seek out the answers until enlightenment encompasses me--I cannot abandon my quest to understand, for within me is a soul who must somehow grasp the meaning, the purpose and fulfillment of knowing.  So onward I go, forever seeking, forever asking, forever hoping to learn, to find my way and then to be able to share what I have learned, to give to others the vast knowledge that will enlighten and help us each to understand.  I will continue this quest and hope some how, some way that I can dry your tears, dear Jesus, and make you proud of me, my fellow human kind, you see.  We are all just children, searching, yearning hoping to learn--yet so many of us here are cruel and hard and have no concern for others -- we are so very wrapped up within our own world of self and cannot see or understand that we ALL are ONE.  Each of us connects to the other--each of us plays a part in all life that unfolds.  This I know.  My heart bleeds with your tears, dear Jesus, for I know that this world is so far from what you had hoped it to be, but then too, I know that where there is life, there is always hope.  So as long as I live, I will continue to search, to find a way to bring to me an understanding of all that is--and whenever I am full of this enlightenment, this knowledge of love and life, I will share and I will rejoice and find others who are just as joyful in the understanding and who will at long last be able to find a way to take your heartfelt tears for mankind and turn them into smiles of joy from your heart.  One day we will all be ONE in knowledge, in Love and in LIFE. 

This I know.

And you, dear Jesus, will weep no more.